When Ella* gets up in the morning, she often starts her day with a Class A drug before breakfast. A cup of tea and a small capsule of magic mushroom “dust”, before taking her three children to school and carrying on with her day.
The 36-year-old, who lives in Buckinghamshire, says she is not tripping as she waves them goodbye. Rather, she is one of a number of parents microdosing hallucinogens, which she believes eases the stresses of modern life.
“I’m a better parent,” Ella claims of her psychedelic use. She says she feels calmer, happier, less anxious, less likely to catastrophise when things don’t go to plan. “I’m more present, I interact with my children better. Rather than me trying to just keep it together as a mother, it’s now quality time.”
Psychedelics have been gaining mainstream attention in recent years. In the US, where psilocybin – the naturally occurring compound in magic mushrooms – has been legalised for medicinal use in some states, there are several online communities for parents which have sprung up online.
Illegal in the UK – although there are calls from some quarters for restrictions to be eased – a rise in interest here is in no small part down to microdosing, defined as taking tiny doses “below the perceptual threshold” that “do not impair normal functioning”.
The number of people aged 16 to 59 using the drug in England and Wales is estimated to have more than doubled in the past decade, from 119,000 in the year ending March 2014 to 279,000 in 2023, according to the latest Office for National Statistics research. Since 2020 alone there has been a rise of 68%, from around 166,000.
Health and legal risks
But there are potentially serious consequences should you be caught. As a Class A drug in the UK, the maximum penalty for possession is up to seven years in prison, an unlimited fine, or both. The maximum penalty for supply or production is life in prison.
Taking them in larger quantities can have serious effects. Frank, the anti-drug advisory service, warns magic mushrooms can make you feel “paranoid, anxious, overwhelmed” and can cause dizziness, sickness and stomach pains, while the NHS lists them among the drugs that can trigger psychotic episodes.
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“I had visual disturbances for a few days afterwards one time,” one user told Sky News, talking about a larger dose of mushrooms rather than microdosing. “Fortunately, it went away. But it was horrible. I was sober, I knew what I was doing, but the effects were awful.”
And one microdoser shared how her initial experiences made her feel “less anxious” and happier, but after upping her dose she felt down and less in control of her emotions.
‘Being a mum is amazing – but it can be hard’
On microdosing, scientists say the illegal status of the drug has prevented serious research on the topic specifically and what the long-term negative effects may be, while separate placebo studies for microdosing both psilocybin and LSD have found that users’ expectations are behind at least some of the anecdotal benefits.
But many magic mushroom microdosers claim it has improved their lives.
Ella says she found herself drinking more and taking drugs recreationally following the end of a relationship. Life as a single parent was hard. “My kids were fed and clothed but I was emotionally disconnected. Most days I would get them off to school and go back to bed and cry.”
During the pandemic, she realised she needed to make a change. After meeting her current partner, they looked into microdosing mushrooms and started taking very small doses for what she says are calming effects, rather than full hallucinogenic trips. She now takes a small capsule on a few mornings each week, with a few days off.
She says the couple have done their research and claims “there’s no way I could accidentally take too much”. She is happy to keep her capsules at home and says she treats them as she would any substance that might potentially be harmful, making sure they’re “not lying around for the children to pick up”.
Ella, like most of the parents I spoke to for this article, did not want to give her real name. “Being a mum’s not bad – it’s amazing – but it can be hard… and psychedelics have helped me as a parent massively,” said one. “But I’m a single mum – and it is a drug. It’s frustrating as it’s something I’m passionate about, but I can’t risk [speaking publicly about it].”
‘I feel more in tune’
But Molly Gunn, a mother of three from Somerset (pictured above), is open about having microdosed, saying she first tried it about five years ago.
She says she has taken tiny doses, sometimes when her children were present, and chose to try it as an alternative to alcohol, using drops once or twice a week during periods of taking a break from drinking wine; she gives little away about how she has obtained them, simply saying: “I know someone who knows someone.”
While one experience left her in tears – “I just cried and cried… like I had loads of emotions to get out” – Molly says others have been happy. “I’ve had family dinners and laughed so much, tears streaming down my face, because my kids are so funny. I remember turning to my husband and I was like, ‘are they always this funny?'”
Some microdosers say the effects are similar to a small glass of wine, while Ella says they are more subtle. Others compare the feeling to the buzz from a strong cup of coffee. “I just felt quite relaxed and mellow, happy,” says Molly. “You feel more in tune with what’s going on around you. So when my kids are around, it made me more in tune with them.”
While she knows it is not without risk legally, she says she is not worried as she is taking very small amounts – and wants to speak out in the hope that attitudes – and the law – may shift. In fact, the thing she was most worried about was her parents knowing. “But it turned out that my mum said that nothing surprises her these days,” she says. “She was more worried that I would pick some mushrooms that were poisonous myself.”
‘No drug is without risks’
However, Harry Sumnall, professor of substance use at Liverpool John Moores University’s Public Health Institute, warns some users who believe they are microdosing may be taking more than they think, and that even low psychedelic doses can affect memory, cognition, and behaviour.
“Overdosing is easy without the right equipment and with an unfamiliar or new batch of drugs,” he says, adding that experiences can also be affected by a person’s personality, mental health, “and setting of use”, as well as dosage. The effects can be “unpredictable”, so while some may have positive experiences, “that doesn’t mean all psychedelic experiences will be like this”.
No drug is without risks, he warns, but says a “balanced assessment is that psilocybin mushrooms at low doses are relatively less harmful” than most other drugs taken in the UK. However, he points out that the drug is illegal to possess, sell, or even share with others, “regardless of the amount”, and a drugs conviction can in serious cases lead to social services getting involved if children are perceived to be at risk from parental drug use.
“Purchasing drugs through illicit markets is also risky in itself,” he adds. “There is no quality control of products, and mis-selling, contamination, and substitution may mean exposure to potentially more harmful substances.”
One condition reported by some users of magic mushrooms is hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD), which causes visual disturbances and flashbacks even after the effects of a drug have worn off. The Johns Hopkins Center for Psychedelic and Consciousness Research is currently conducting a study of people with symptoms to help understand the condition better, and the risk factors.
It is considered to be relatively rare, and experts say it is more likely to be caused by other drugs such as ecstasy or LSD, but warn the potential risk is there with mushrooms too. Sometimes the HPPD symptoms can be brief, for others they can be long-lasting.
Some of those lauding the positive effects of microdosing psilocybin are parents. Jo*, who used to live in the US, is a mum-of-three who has also microdosed, including on family days out, on occasion.
“I’m sure people frown on that but if you know what you’re doing it can be a mind-expanding experience,” she says. Although it’s not something she would ever discuss at the school gates. “No, no, no!” she laughs.
“It makes you less irritated by certain things,” says Alice, who is in her 40s and from east London. “I had my daughter after a long life of being independent and I found it really hard to surrender to motherhood. I’m alone with her most of the time and have to be everything to her, which I find extremely difficult.”
She also started during the pandemic and now goes through phases, she says, sometimes doing it a lot, other times not at all.
Alice is aware she has a responsibility as a parent and takes pains to hide her supply from her daughter. “Some of it is in chocolate form. If she found it she would eat the whole thing and end up talking to the ceiling,” she laughs. “You have to be organised and do it safely.”
And in the US, former comedian and mum-of-one Tracey Tee launched a group for mothers interested in microdosing mushrooms just under two years ago and now has more than 1,000 private members and more than 18,000 followers on Instagram, including many from the UK and other countries.
Tracey, who lives in Colorado, where psilocybin was legalised for medicinal use in 2022, has just received messages from two grandmothers – “one is 85 and one is 80” – when we speak.
‘A deeper connection’
Image: Dr Anna Ross, co-founder of the Scottish Psychedelic Research Group
Dr Anna Ross, co-founder of the Scottish Psychedelic Research Group, as well as a university lecturer, philosopher and researcher who advocates for the use of plant medicine in supporting mental and physical health, says she wants to break the stigma.
Each autumn, she heads out to the “sheep hills and grassy knolls” to pick her annual supply of liberty cap mushrooms, the most common type found in the UK. She has taken her children foraging with her, mushroom book in hand, as “a way to engage them with autumn” – although as they get older they are less interested in getting filthy for fungi.
She has no concerns her kids might want to sneak a taste, saying they hate mushrooms and in “no way” would want to eat a “slimy” one from the ground. And she would never take large amounts around her children.
What she aims to do, through her work and the research group, is offer a different narrative about psychedelics, which are typically either talked about in conjunction with their connection with indigenous communities in South America, or seen as a “new drug” to help with mental health problems.
There is a long history of people in the UK using psychedelics “not necessarily for healing, but just for enjoyment – a deeper connection with nature, a deeper connection with their community and their friends”, she says, pointing out that it was legal to pick fresh magic mushrooms in the UK until the government’s Drugs Act came into force in 2005.
Despite her work, she is acutely aware she is talking about a Class A drug, not a panacea, and would not advocate it for everyone. “My honest and authentic feeling is that if they’re taken at the wrong time, or with the wrong people, in the wrong place or with the wrong intentions, it can result in it all going wrong,” she says. “What ‘going wrong’ means is different to different people, but there is a chance of harm.”
More research needed – on potential positives and negatives
Professor David Nutt, head of the neuropsychopharmacology centre at Imperial College London, is another expert who says the illegal status of magic mushrooms in the UK has prevented serious research on the topic of microdosing. Professor Allan Young, head of academic psychiatry at the Institute of Psychiatry, Psychology and Neuroscience at King’s College London, agrees there is little formal research and says the anecdotal benefits have not been proved.
“The trials we run at King’s use synthetic psilocybin compounds and are conducted in controlled therapeutic environments with trained professionals on hand to minimise the impact of adverse events,” he says. “In recreational settings, like any drug sourced through non-official means, the user does not necessarily know what they are taking and can easily find themselves in trouble if they experience unexpectedly severe side effects.”
But the parents we spoke to said they would be happy to teach their children about them when they are old enough. “I tell my children that when they grow up, if they want to take mushrooms, I’m fully supportive of that,” says Molly.
“One day, when it’s appropriate – when they’re adults – I will speak to my children about it,” Ella agrees. “I wouldn’t have a problem with that.”
US country music star Jelly Roll is seeking a pardon to wipe his criminal convictions from the record, after spending time behind bars as a teenager.
He told the Tennessee Board of Parole that while in detention, he fell in love with songwriting which he says changed his life in ways he “never dreamed imaginable”.
Now aged 40, the rapper-turned-country singer, real name Jason DeFord, wants to be able to travel internationally to perform, but his criminal past currently makes that difficult.
“I want to be an inspiration for people who are now where I used to be – to let them know that change is truly possible,” Jelly Roll told the board, which has recommended a pardon. The final decision rests with the state’s Republican Governor Bill Lee.
The singer broke into country music with the 2023 album “Whitsitt Chapel” and crossover songs like “Need a Favor”. He has been recognised at both the CMT Music Awards and Country Music Association (CMA) Awards and earned four Grammy nominations, including for new artist of the year.
Image: Jelly Roll performing in Vancouver during the closing ceremony of the Invictus Games in February. Pic: Reuters
As a part of the pardon application, friends and local leaders wrote to the board about Jelly Roll’s transformation and generosity.
Nashville Sheriff Daron Hall described how the star had an awakening in one of the jails he managed, while Live Nation Entertainment CEO and President Michael Rapino pointed out his charity work.
Jelly Roll has spoken openly about his criminal record and what it has taken to overcome it. He often visits jails before performing concerts and helps feed people who are homeless.
Due to his criminal record, which includes a robbery at age 17 and drug charges at 23, he says it “takes a team of lawyers and a mountain of paperwork” to perform internationally, sometimes requiring special permits.
Last year, he gave evidence before a Senate committee about his own drug addiction and called for stronger legislation against the fentanyl crisis, saying he has “attended more funerals than I care to share”.
He was recently able to make his first international tour, taking in Canada and the UK, where he spoke about a rehabilitation programme.
Governor Lee said every case seeking clemency, such as pardons, is equally important and goes through a thorough process.
“The reporting on Jelly Roll, that’s encouraging for his situation, but there are steps yet to happen in that case,” he told reporters.
It is rare for art to imitate life quite so literally as Conclave does in the wake of the death of Pope Francis.
The papal drama, which is based on Robert Harris’s book of the same name and directed by Edward Berger, is a fictional take on the closed-door process of appointing a new pontiff, known as a conclave, which is set to begin for real in the Vatican on 5 May.
Cardinals from across the world – depicted in the 2024 film by stars including Ralph Fiennes, John Lithgow and Stanley Tucci – will descend on Rome, where they will be cut off from the outside world until a new pope is chosen.
As with anything given the Hollywood treatment, some elements of the film were added for dramatic effect. The biggest twists (don’t worry, you are safe from major spoilers) were read by some as anti-Catholic propaganda.
But on the whole, Conclave – which took home four BAFTA Awards, including best film, and best adapted screenplay at the Oscars – now feels bizarrely prescient, having been released months before cardinals first became concerned for Pope Francis‘s health.
So how accurately does it depict the highly secretive conclave process?
Image: A conclave to elect Pope Francis’ successor will begin on 5 May. Pic: AP
The basics
On the basics, the film does an accurate job of depicting what we know an actual conclave involves.
Cardinals are seen living, eating and socialising together at a version of the purpose-built Casa Santa Marta, a guesthouse on the grounds of the Apostolic Palace in the Vatican City, which is what will happen at the beginning of next month.
Image: The film’s depiction of cardinals in the Sistine Chapel. Pic: Focus Features/Shutterstock
The film also shows the Sistine Chapel – the famous Vatican hall decorated with the works of Michelangelo – being swept for listening devices before the start of the highly classified morning and evening voting sessions, where cardinals write down the name of the person they wish to become pope.
Berger’s thriller also accurately depicts cardinals putting their votes inside a sealed container – which in real life is a silver urn. Once all votes have been cast, a Vatican dignitary reads the votes aloud.
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Cardinals assemble to plan pope funeral
If a two-thirds majority has not been reached, the votes are threaded together and burnt with an additive to produce black smoke, only showing white smoke when enough cardinals agree on a candidate to take over the papacy – details also true to the real process.
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The pope’s apartment has been sealed
Internal politics
The film shows clear factions within the group of voting cardinals, with some clearly backing particular candidates more than others, largely depending on their beliefs.
Cardinal Aldo Bellini (played by Tucci) is depicted as the leading liberal candidate, who seeks to reform the church and follow in the footsteps of the late pope. Whereas Cardinal Goffredo Tedesco (played by Sergio Castellitto) is an Italian who represents the church’s conservative wing.
It is true that every pope will have their own beliefs, some of which are seen as more liberal or conservative than others. Pope Francis in fact diverged from his predecessors on many contentious issues within the Church.
He more openly embraced LGBTQ individuals (although stopped short of full acceptance), decried climate change, and called publicly for a ceasefire in Gaza.
Image: Fiennes as Cardinal Lawrence and Stanley Tucci as Cardinal Bellini. Pic: Focus Features 2024
Speaking to Sky News’ Katie Spencerin February after the film’s release, Fiennes said it is “human” how the cardinals are seen positioning themselves for the top role.
“They’re full of pride, ambition, things they’ve kept hidden and I think that’s what’s great [is this film] is not cynical and that’s what drew me to it.”
But Bill Cavanaugh, a professor of Catholic Studies at DePaul University, told The Guardian that the politicisation of the process in the film is likely “a little bit exaggerated”.
He said cardinals do not often fall “neatly into progressive and conservative camps”.
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‘It’s not a facile takedown of the Catholic Church’
The character of Cardinal Lawrence
Central to the film is Fiennes’ character Cardinal Lawrence, a key dignitary within the Vatican who is tasked with overseeing the fictional conclave.
Cardinal Lawrence is depicted in the film, at times, as fulfilling the roles of both the camerlengo, the person who traditionally takes over the Holy See – the central governing body of the Catholic Church and Vatican City – after the death of a pope, and the dean of the College of Cardinals.
But in reality these are two separate roles.
Image: Pic: Philippe Antonello/Focus Features 2024
After Pope Francis’s death on Monday, Irish-born American Cardinal Kevin Farrell took over the Holy See as camerlengo. The traditional role involves helping to organise the conclave but also includes announcing the pope’s death, sealing the papal apartment and breaking the pontiff’s fisherman’s ring – a sign that there is a vacancy in the Vatican.
Cardinal Farrell will also play a key role in the pope’s funeral, which will take place in Rome on 26 April.
This differs from the dean of the College of Cardinals, who is seen as the “first among equals” – essentially the head of the body of cardinals who elect the new pontiff.
Image: Cardinal Kevin Joseph Farrell is the camerlengo. Pic: Reuters
Image: Cardinal Giovanni Battista Re is the dean of the College of Cardinals. Pic: Reuters
Cardinal Giovanni Battista Re has been in the position since 2020 and will now preside over the general congregation meetings, the gathering of the cardinals currently in Rome, which finalises the details of the pontiff’s funeral and upcoming conclave.
Once a new pontiff is chosen, Cardinal Battista will also be the person to accept the election and ask the newest pope what name he will take.
One of the film’s main characters, Cardinal Vincent Benitez (played by Carlos Diehz), is described as a cardinal in pectore, which refers to the real process of a pope appointing a cardinal in secret.
A pope is entitled to keep the name of the newly elected cardinal secret for various reasons, but they are not officially recognised as a cardinal until their name is known publicly.
Contrary to what the film depicts, cardinals who have only been named in secret cannot take part in a conclave.
The Who’s Zak Starkey is back in the band after reports earlier this week he’d been sacked.
A statement on the band’s official social media pages written by guitarist Pete Townshend said “communication issues” had been “aired happily” and Starkey was “not being asked to step down”.
Townshend also acknowledged the situation “blew up very quickly and got too much oxygen”, concluding “it’s over” and acknowledged his part in “the confusion”.
Titled, “News Flash! Who Backs Zak,” the long statement said Starkey was “not being asked to step down from The Who”.
It said: “There have been some communication issues, personal and private on all sides, that needed to be dealt with, and these have been aired happily.
“Roger and I would like Zak to tighten up his latest evolved drumming style to accommodate our non-orchestral line-up and he has readily agreed.”
Image: Roger Daltrey and Starkey on stage at the Royal Albert Hall in March. Pic: PA
The rock and roll row followed the band’s Teenage Cancer Trust shows in March.
Townsend’s statement went on: “I take responsibility for some of the confusion. Our TCT shows at the Royal Albert Hall were a little tricky for me.
“I thought that four and a half weeks would be enough time to recover completely from having a complete knee replacement. (Why did I ever think I could land on my knees?) Wrong!
“Maybe we didn’t put enough time into sound checks, giving us problems on stage. The sound in the centre of the stage is always the most difficult to work with.”
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Going on to highlight the specifics of what went wrong, Townshend added: “Roger did nothing wrong but fiddle with his in-ear monitors. Zak made a few mistakes and he has apologised. Albeit with a rubber duck drummer.
“We are a family, this blew up very quickly and got too much oxygen. It’s over. We move forward now with optimism and fire in our bellies.”
A review of one gig, published in the Metro, suggested frontman Roger Daltrey – who launched the annual gig series for the charity in 2000 – had been “frustrated” with the drumming during some tracks.
Townsend also said he owed drummer Scott Devours “an apology” for not “crushing the rumour” that he would be replacing Starkey in the Who line-up.
Devours is supporting Roger Daltrey on his solo tour, which kicked off this weekend.
Starkey – who is the son of The Beatles drummer Ringo Starr – reposted Townshend’s statement, with the message: “V grateful to be a part of the Who family Thanks Roger and Pete xx”.
The 59-year-old drummer previously said he was “surprised and saddened” by news of his sacking.
He’s been with The Who for nearly three decades, after joining in 1996 for their Quadrophenia tour.
Starkey also drums for supergroup Mantra Of The Cosmos – along with fellow musicians Shaun Ryder and Bez from Happy Mondays, and Andy Bell of Ride and Oasis – and has previously played with Oasis, Lightning Seeds and Johnny Marr.